48 – Why I labeled myself – 5

I became jealous when my mom bragged about how good a singer someone else was, when not saying anything about me. I've gotten over that, it doesn't bother me anymore because I feel I have a good relationship with my mom and I feel like she appreciated me fro me. I still become jealous when my partner admires a woman singer he hears on the radio. I want to be the one he admires, I feel threatened that this other woman is taking away 'my specialty'.

Jealousy- jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.

-mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.

-vigilance in maintaining or guarding something.

-a jealous feeling, disposition, state, or mood.

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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be and become jealous.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from others through comparing myself to them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to other people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in comparison to other people as 'more than' or 'less than' them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity design of 'inferiority' and 'superiority'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing 'inferiority' to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that 'inferiority' exists.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing 'superiority' to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that 'superiority' exists.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened by beings that I see as 'superior' to me, therefore using nastiness, spite, and gossip to exalt myself as ego above the other being within my mind – so that I can feel like I have 'won' and the other being 'lost'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and destroy whoever I am jealous about – through nastiness, spite and gossip.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe my own judgments – instead of realizing that in jealousy lies an opportunity for me to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am 'jealous' about – so that I equalize myself with this being.

When and as I feel jealous, I stop, I breathe. I realize that jealousy arises from comparison and self judgment and these are only in the polarity construct of the mind, which perpetuates separation. I commit myself, instead of feeling spite for the person I am jealous of, to focus on living and expressing myself as what I am comparing myself to in another being.