Day 9 Sirens – a trigger to fear
While I was driving down a four lane
divided highway, I notice up ahead on the opposite side flashing
lights. As it came closer I heard the sirens and immediately reacted
with anxiety. A deep pressure, a tightening in my chest. I realized
from the time I saw the flashing lights, I had nothing to worry
about. It was on the other side so I didn't have to pull to the
shoulder. It wasn't a cop behind me either, pulling me over. But I
still had that panic as soon as I heard the sirens, and I had to
laugh at myself afterwords!
Funny how the sound of sirens is
engrained within me as a trigger to “something bad is going to
happen to me”.
I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing myself to think “something bad is happening to me”.
I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing myself to connect the sound of sirens with the thought
“something bad is going to happen to me”.
I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing the sound of sirens to exist as a trigger point within me
which triggers the thought “something bad is going to happen to
me”.
I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing myself to connect the thought “something bad is going to
happen to me” to the emotion of anxiety/panic.
I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing myself to participate in within an emotional experience of
anxiety/panic.
I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing myself to go into an emotional experience of anxiety/panic
because I realize that there is nothing to be afraid of.
I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing myself to fear something bad will happen to me.
I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing myself to connect the sound of sirens to fear itself, and
thus I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear my own fear.
When and as I hear sirens, I take a
deep breath and bring myself here, out of my mind. I do not allow
myself to think “something bad is going to happen to me”, but
instead I focus on what IS happening, outside my mind, in real life.
I realize that the sound of sirens is only a trigger, so I commit
myself to be more prepared by breathing deeply and not allowing
myself to go into thought the next time I see flashing lights, and
hear the sirens.